Isolation

Sometimes all of the fame & popularity isn't what I want. Not at all. I never wanted all of this. It's nice, but all I want is something solid & something consistent. I know nothing lasts forever, but people aren't nothing & relationships can last forever.

I just want a solid relationship. No, not a boyfriend or lover. A friend, bestfriend, close friend, etc. Not those friends that only talk to me because I'm that one popular girl at school that wears expensive Hollister clothes & models for Abercrombie & Fitch. There is way more to me than that, trust. No one takes their time to really get to know me.

Because behind all of this expensive brand name clothing & cute assets, is a girl that no one really cares enough about to get to know.

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And no, I am not your girl. It's cute how y'all are overprotective of me & stuff, but let me have my freedom, please? We never had a thing, & we never will if you keep doing this to me. All of you. Shoot, I might just go lesbian. I love you, but I love my freedom too. I'm not yours, I'm not theirs, I'm me. I do not belong to anyone. And don't make me choose between you & 10 other guys because I'll just end up choosing none of you. (Referring to last night) & No, I'm not being stubborn or being a loner. I shouldn't be forced to choose between the people I love.

I guess.. to every end there's a new beginning.

Let go, & let God.